Out of Control

I feel things are somewhat out of control. Ordinary things seemed to be delayed for no good reason. I find myself staying up late to follow tangents on the internet. Hopping from one link to the next. I seem to act as if my existence can be justified if I post at enough sites, respond to enough comments. I compulsively check sites to see if anyone has responded to my comments. It's really obssessive although my expectations are that I won't get many responses as there is simply a flood of material on the internet that people can see.

If all I really wanted was attention and adoration, I could pretend to be a horny young woman with large breasts. It's no wonder woman still have to worry about being seen only as sex objects.